sometimes the right thing and the hardest thing are the same.

i have been tempted many a time to make public matters of the heart as they relate to me personally, both good and bad. yet i know my philosophy is ever changing as relationships come and go. every relationship {dating, friendship, family, or otherwise} that ends and causes a crack only brings more light into my life. i will say that it takes a lot for me to get to a place of trust, but once i am there... i am all there. my love is pretty dang deep and w i d e {this is not a reference to a sunday school tune, but maybe?}, which makes for a lot of good times and also makes the break(s) substantial. but i am as thankful for the breaks as i am for the butterflies. thankful for the ability to feel something. thankful for the lessons learned.

sometimes i swear someone has written a song for me, or maybe i wrote it for them?

for this reason, singer-songwriters will have a special place in heaven {according to me}. lissie is no exception. she is about as raw as it gets. listen, and enjoy?

I turned my back
You were gone in a flash
Like you always do
You’ve always gone off
Somewhere else

And when the phone rang
And I thought it was you
And I sprung like a kid
Who just got out of school
But it’s almost
Always never you
Never you

I scream like a child
My insides went wild

When I’m alone with you, you make me feel, you make me feel
When I’m alone with you, you are the one, you are the one

When I reach out and I only grab air
And it kills me to think
That you never did care and it’s hopeless
You’ve always gone off somewhere else

And I’m throwing a tantrum
Why are you such a phantom

Reminds me of home
When you’re around me
Next time you leave
Don’t go without me

where there is love {past or present},

 there is art.